one time.

me plus you.

sooo i went christmas shopping with the boyfriend today. we did good :)
i spent a lot of time on the phone with the lil sissie asking her for advice on gifts and organizing christmas time etc etc etc.

had such a LOVELY weekend with him. went to his dad's family christmas dinner last night. it was in the largest house--looked like a doll house my cousins liz and meghan had. like, the stairs and the carpet and omg omg omg the rooms. unbelievable. plus there were really really cute babies all over the house and a puppy that i was ready to take home with me.

hw: "k, you make a distraction and i grab the dog and we roll"
bf: "what?"

overall, a really great christmas dinner full of family and love. i was a little mervous at first..not gonna lie but i had a drink...or two..or three..and had sooo much fun. kicked the boyfriend's ass at ping pong. sweeeet.

so tonight, he went out with the guys so i thought "why not rent the cartoon version of 'how the grinch stole christmas' and watch it?" yaaa i spent the time alone to drink corona and dance in my room to justin bieber and ginuwine. eeee! i'm so cool.

yaaa cool. yaaaaa.

one time.

baby you're all that i want.

baby, we're in heaven.

***

this past week was so much fun!!! tines came to visit me and omg omg omg did we laugh. giggle. snort. pee our pants with love and enjoyment and LOOOOVE!!! so many giggles, it hurt. lots. haha. love her. love us.

***

soooo it's almost christmas and i can't be more excited! i will be off for 5 days straight...and spending alot of time in his truck. and mmm with him. and mmm mmm mmm. i get so distracted when i think of him...


i never thought i could ever feel this way about someone. ever. i have butterflies in my tummy when i think about him. when i see him. when i am lying with him. ew, i'm gross.

it is the weirdest and most amazing feeling to have for someone. so deep and so pure.
even when i'm cheesed at him, i can't stay that way. he's too fucking cute. and too fucking funny. and fuuuuck i'm inlove.

never thought i would ever let myself be where i'm at. and trust me. i've had some serious issues with opening up to him, letting him in...keeping him in the dark made me feel 'in control'...the reality of it all was that i was even in less control and actually sooo into him that it was becoming hard for me to...not be with him. wholeheartedly. mmmm he's the best and i'm so lucky.

i have never felt more special in my life. smiles smiles smiles smiles smiles.

***

i made him a really gay mix cd of love songs. tines helped me with the title "love conquers all; the most romantic songs of our lives"....hahaha! truly madly deeply anyone?! haha gonna be the best 'gift' ever...haha, actually concealing the real gift. fucking tix to the raptors gameeee. holla. best girlfriend everrrr. kinda totally pumped about going to a ball game. ya, i like bball. weird? maybe. awesome? YES.

***

i miss my family and cannot wait to see them soon!! trying to work out christmas gifties right now..and i made dinner last night with help from tines on my blackberry..i cleaned, organized and bought clementines. christmas is here, yo!
i'm going to buy some christmas decorations today and then decorate my apartment...gotta bring the christmas out! i'm an elf. what.

***

listening to the best songs right now. a lil christmas, a lil "i'll be" by edwin mccain. mmm. love my life.

cloud nine
x

he asked me if he bought a house, if i'd live there with him.
(absolutely)

why can't everyday be like christmas?

wow it's been a long time since i blogged. my apologies!!!

my life has been so crazy busy that even on my 'downtime' i never have a minute to not do something, organize something, handle something etc...but i guess that's life? i mean i'm pretty sure if i had absolutely nothing to plan for, nothing to handle, nothing to do...then i'd be pretty damn bored/sad/lonely.

so in that positive turn--i am so busy and it's fabulous!

i just finished cleaning the bathroom and the kitchen is next. my badass BFF is coming to visit me tomorrow (for a whole week! weeeooo!!) and i would like her to not get disgusted using the bathroom or when she's in the kitchen making me a delicious dinner (yaa i said it. and yaaa it's gonna happen) i don't want the dirt to discourage her from that delicious dinner...make sense?

ok gooood.

omg, every year i forget how much i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE elvis christmas!! omg elvis, you're the king man. like, THE king. eff if you were still alive i'd rip my clothes off for you. i would.

i cannot wait for christmas this year! it's going to be such a different one for me. my first christmas with a man in my life...my first 'relationship' christmas. hmmm! i was a little nervous about the idea of spending the holidays with the bf and our respective families. the more i think about it, the more excited i am--being able to share the holiday memories with someone special and also HOW CUTE is it that we're gonna be road tripping from TO to the 'twa to stratford back to TO...his truck, christmas music, snow, christmas music, gifts, sigh. so lovely.

he's pumped to spend time with my family too--and i'm pumped to have a dinner with his mama. i love family and i think that's what christmas is all about. family. and i feel so 'mature' that i think this way..haha, my mom would be proud.

no but for serious here peeps. christmas is about spending time with the ones you love. and eating a lot. and drinking eggnog. and listening to/singing christmas songs. and eating. and LOVE. lots and lots of ELL OH VEE EEE.

listening to faith hill's 'where are you christmas?' reminds me of my sis. and it makes me miss her alot. A LOT. maybe i'll call her?!

wow, it's almost the end of 2009 and a whole new year is up and it's going to be FANTASTIC. i am so proud of 2009. so proud. it was a terrific year and wow. i am so glad that my life is the way it is and my family is my family and that there is just so much LOVE in my life. wow i really need to call my sister-this song is making me weepy and thinking about how lucky i am to have such a awesome family. geee.

when i think like this it feels like christmas all the time!

kitchen cleaning time! boooo.

love you.
x

ps how many times did i say 'christmas'? hahahaa someone's eager ;)

whenever you call.

the accident 'i love you' slip-ups make me laugh out loud and smile huge inside.

i'll never be too far to feel you.

i have never been one to be speechless or to have a hard time expressing myself...
i'm having a hard time expressing my thoughts and feelings i have from these past two months.

i guess that's why i blog.

i miss blogging, a lot.

k, so these past two months have been so fantastic...and real. like, REAL.

i used to have such fantasy in my life--how i wanted things, what i would expect from someone/something...what it would feel like to have someone...there. always there and ready to help me, make me laugh, tell me to knock off my nonsense...take care of me.

life is not what i fantasized about, what i mocked it up to be, what i assumed. the fantasy was brilliant, beautiful, perfect.

the greatest discovery i've had over the last little while is, that despite how amazing the fantasy is...the real deal is SO MUCH GREATER. more whimsical, more fun, more lovely.

you've opened my eyes and lifted me up inside :)

it feels like a puzzle piece i was missing. ew, i'm so gross. and so happy. so gross and so happy.

***

my commercial is on the air--which means money and also HAHA I'M ON TV! that's jokes!!
i've been getting the best texts, emails, phone calls about it--the support is amazing.

how can i be so damn lucky? and be touched by so many people's hearts and messages. life is fabbbb.


***

went home last weekend. brought the boyfriend. it was the best trip i've ever had at home ever. for real. like, ever.

it was so super amazing to see my sister and my mama. i've really missed them! there were no fights, just laughs. so many laughs! it was so inspiring and comforting. the TRIO now has a necklace--like a friendship one but it's big sis-mom-lil sis. it's adorable and small and oh so personal. mama gave me one of her chains..it's beautiful. just like her.

***

andddd bloggers, it's almost my 23rd birthday!! what? when did this happen?! i remember when RW turned 23....that seems like yesterday! efff.

wow. so much changes in a year. sooo much.

change is a good thing.

x

hush hush.

i had been dreading last night for weeks. the idea of it. everything about it scared me. i was scared of the unknown--what's going to happen? what am i going to say? what is he going to say?

needless to say, it was a G R E A T night and i had nothing to worry about! life surprises me sometimes. and it was a great surprise. up-late, giggles, talks...it was nice. :)

sometimes i can justify something until i am blue in the face, mock-up the weirdest situations, and convince myself of what is 'greatest' good. i'm silly. i am way too over-imaginative and dramatic. i'm so glad i made a decision. he's a cute one.

do something that scares you.
do something that you think you might regret.
there is never a point in your life where you can't make a change.
going one direction is perfectly fine until you feel at a cross-roads.
there is nothing wrong with turning around and going another way.

you are the only one living YOUR life. yes. our families, our friends influence us and inspires us. sometimes aggravate us or supress us...they help to mold you but at the end of the day you are the only one who is you. and i think that's pretty damn great.

i'm off to run errands and be happy. i have a huge urge to call my momma but she's away at a cottage and i'm cheesed because i can't get ahold of her and texting her is not as fun as calling her. and babbling to her. gee, i miss her.

i feel really great today. i'm going out into the sunshine so i can a)tan and b)smile.

ew i'm gross.

peace + love
x

these are just words i'm singing.

oh what a night!

i'm having c+ and g over for dinner tonight. i was supposed to work at T's but because training has been brutally amazing at BR's...leaves me a little exhausted. my boss at T's is a phenomenal man and he has the greatest compassion. he let me have the night off. good thing too because i've been walking around with my eyes half open. not fun. not fun for anyone.

girls just got here.

***

we had ribs. potatoes. salad. a truly divine feast. and grasshopper pie for dessert...and we ate it out of the container because we a)hadn't defrosted it properly and b)it's how we roll.

this post sucks and i know it. i am hoping to spend more time blogging in the near future so i promise i will make it up to all of you in the blogosphere.

love peace and grasshopper pie. mmm.

x

untouched.

one week of complete 'maybe'. so many talks with so many GREAT friends. putting order into my life brought about A LOT of confusion.

finally made a decision. and i think it's the right one. definitely a great one. i'm scared.

i met a boy. yes. and he's fabulous. the universe works in such a crazy way--just when i'm getting attention from one boy...my milkshake brings all the other boys to my yard. so to speak.

utterly confusing to me. being a girl that chases boys and loves it (to some degree) and then WHAM! here are all the boys that you liked/hated/dated/smooched and they all want you at the same time. k..wicked. a little late guys!

so yes, i made a decision to ACTUALLY give this guy a chance. i deserve to date a really great guy. so yaaa.

funny how life works out.

***

on the job front, i feel much more apart of the acting community than i have ever felt before and i'm not even going out for auditions...haha industry's slow but damn do we party and have really great attractive people to hang around with! ha.

i got two new jobs. no more dirty sports bar for me.
yorkville yes. north york yes. money? hellllll yes.

life is good. scary and fun and good.

peace + LOVE.
x

because of you.

woah my life.

it's been awhile since i've blogged. forgive me!

so. i still work at the bar (urgh) but things are looking up! my friend britt is moving into my pad so we can save money and pay less rent...sweet deal. this means, less debt, more clothes, and more fun fun fun. acting classes...camping trips...did i say clothes? ha.

recently a boy re-entered my life. well, i made him. not by force or anything! just some good old facebook communicating. brilliant, i know.
i decided it was high time that i say hello and make sure i didn't freak him out at the wedding. yes, ladies and gents, it's the dude from my cousin's wedding last year! yes, the guy that i was soo upset had a girlfriend. well my dear bloggers, times are a-changing and NO MORE GIRLFRIEND. yup. yes. yes. yes.
excited but we'll see...this is a new me. a me that knows that there is no rush on anything really...time is so...relative? plus, why rush something G R E A T?!
gosh, i'm a nerd.

it's a sauna in my crib and i am torn between whether or not i like it. i'm thinking...maybe?! ha, i've wanted warm weather for so long and now that i have it...and it's REALLY warm in here...maybe i hate it? it's just annoying trying to pass out. i'm all about the mofo fan. in my face. all night. maybe even a cold cloth...no A/C for me. i'm such a damn trooper.

i've been working out lots. developed a real love for yoga. developed a serious hate for step class. pretty proud of myself for making smart eating choices, staying active, and feeling damn good. plus i bought a few new clothes a couple days ago. nothing beats retail therapy. FACT.

well, i can't stand my computer chair any longer...so goodnight bloggers. be safe and enjoy the summer! it's never a bummer! haha, i'm a poettttt.

peace, love, and cute cute boys ;)
xoxoxox

fantasy.

i've decided that i want to be able to go to LA and have a two-week vacation in the summer. again.

work has been confusing for me. lots of girls have been fired and/or quit leaving me confused because i have wanted to leave for awhile--not making enough money having so many girls on staff. now that there is less girls, i have more shifts and more opportunity to make money. should i stay and just giv'er and make sooo much money, pay off my debts and try to finance a trip to LA? i think that would be such a sweet deal. i think i might as well stay someplace that is going to make me money. i made a killing last summer because we were short-staffed. i hope it stays that way.

i am going home in a month and i have never been so excited!!! i cannot wait to just veg and be with my family. and omg, a family reunion! how fun! SOF will be there and it will be soo much fun to see her! and i miss my friends.
omg, i miss my best friend T. i miss her sooo much. i feel like it's been forever and we haven't seen one another and i just really need to giggle with her. i am in need of a giggle. like, a giggle that hurts so bad that i almost pee my pants...or if it was brownie camp (urgh) i would actually pee... woah, sorry too much info.

i realize i am NOT as flexi-barbie as i thought i was. i really wanna work on my flexibility and being active. i will not have this hot bod forever and i really need to WORK IT. yaaaaa WORK. IT.

i must peace out and eat something before i hit the gym.
ohh side note, i watched marley and me last night and cried my eyes out. like the biggest crybaby EVER. like, real SOBS. sob sob sob.
pathetic.

xoxo

here comes goodbye.

sometimes i question what i believe, what i think i believe, and what others have faith in.

is it ok to question one's own faith? i mean, i'm still learning and growing.

sometimes i feel like i don't know what i believe in anymore. maybe the 'commitment' of believing in something so intensely scares me. that would make sense. is it forever? what happens when i don't want it anymore? what happens next?

commitment. hmm. seems like a scary thing. it's funny because it shakes me but it's the one thing i want more than anything. is it because i want it so bad it scares me? is it the perfection complex? like, everything must be so perfect.

i have new confidence and understanding in life, on life...i know i can handle whatever life throws at me. i mean, i've been doing it for 22 years already. and yesss, 22-big deal right? but i've seen and experienced life. i don't care what others think.

maybe this is how i feel about my career? it scares me so much because i want it more than anything. i genuinely believe that good things are in store for me. i will be living the life i want.

this whole weekend, i've been talking to c and thinking about this. like, why is it NOT my dream to live in a small town and be a farmer's wife. or why can't i want something that seems so attainable? i could be a kindergarten teacher and live a lovely life with a house and stability. but i can't shake my dreams away. they don't disappear. and if i don't stick it out, i will never know.

i wanna live in L.A. i've been thinking about how amazing it would be to live in L.A...i mean, yes i am at the bottom of the fishtank here in TO and i would be even lower in the states...but god. i think if i had the exposure i could really do something great. i should prolly talk to sof about this. good thing i'm gonna see her in a month.

a cozy home, a wrap-around porch, a dog, a husband, and kids everywhere. sigh. i like it. a lot. hmm, a girl can dream.

peace dreams and faith.
xoxo

halo halo halo.

i can't blog for long. i am expecting c at my place any second. we're gonna quickly munch on pb and banana sandwiches and then head up north to g's fam's house for a garden party.

she buzzed up.

i have decided that i am going to try and work on a tv pilot based on my life. maybe call it beinghollywood?! the main character is named holly and she has an entourage of amazing friends and hilarious situations...all situations are hilarious in my eyes. and i say the dumbest shit. ya, that's a great idea--i should make a tv script making fun of...me! beauty. it would be something of sex and the city meets entourage meets breakfast at tiffany's meets secret diary of a call girl.

haha, what a grat tag line.

k, i need to eat then party.
what do you bloggers think of the idea of me becoming a writer as a side project?! maybe i would make it into a book!? hmmm. i need your thoughts. velcroshoes!? help me. haha.

peace love creativity and peanut butter sandwiches!
xoxoxoxoxxo

do you recognize me?

this will be brief. i am feeling like a whale and i think i should probably go for a walk and get out of the fat funk. gross, fat.

*about to pull a carrie bradshaw in five, four, three, two, one...*

i couldn't help but wonder...are we willing to let go of what we 'think' we want in order to be with who we 'think' we want to be with?

hmmm.

water and love.
xoxo

happiness.

today was...productive. yaaa, productive.

i paid rent and i saw dirty dancing(the musical).

i got free tix thanks to the lovely storm. yes. storm. he called me last night with tickets for today's matinee (let's talk random, shall we?)the show is ending and it was nice to see him before he left. woah, so bizarre. it was incredibly great for me to see him today--he has mellowed out lots. i guess i have too because, gee, it went really smoothly. shit, he's hot. fuuucking hot. haha, oh morals. whyyyy?

***

i want to be a dancer. i think i've definitely blogged this before but honestly...dancing! i could do it. i think? i can. well, i can DO anything. so yes!

i had an incredible meeting with my agent a few days ago--we picked out a headshot and are both super excited about it. yay for not having to jump ship! i wanna work so bad! like SOOOOO BAD. i want to work work workkk. i've been thinking about theatre alot recently-miss it lots. but man, i think i am finally getting a grip on film/tv work...i think i am getting it. so, that's a major win.

***

i'm kinda sleepy, so sorry for the small post. the small post that's not funny at all. i used all my great lines today. in real life.

love, creativity, and faith.
xoxoxox

falling away.

i've had quite a few days. it's been such a whirlwind of emotions, drama, chaos!!!
it was such silliness that one of the first things i thought to do was update my blog. i need to just...vent? get some stuffff out there in the blog universe.

why is it so easy to feel like your whole world is crumbling down on you? why is it so easy to succumb to the dramatics of life? why do i sometimes feel as if there will never be a solution? hmmm.

i put some order into the chaos that is my life. as you can see, i've changed my blog name-it's the same as my twitter name too-oohhh look at me go!

***

so, i've have had some time to think, ponder, question, cry. wah. i've been battling what i thought was a little cold--which blew up to become the cold of all colds. not really all that physically awful-the usual: sniffles, stuffiness, cough coughing, lozenge taking and ODing on vitamin C--but i really wanted to "rest".."rest" to feel better and get this thing outta me so i can keep living my life. i won't let you (you, being the cold) stop ME from doing the things i normally do...like..enjoying food, and going outside, and working, and...seeing people.

fucking isolation. what is that?!

all this thinking i was doing was making me upset. it hurt my poor little cute brain. i thought about everything...from the choices i make to the clothes i wear...it pissed me off. you know when you're sick and EVERYTHING comes at you and you just want it to leave? like..EVERYTHING..everything shitty happens to you when you're feeling shitty... (here's to never feeling shitty again and for always having positive things happening around me!!)...so shittiness happened and i was left feeling like i was confused about my life, my choices, my beliefs, my closet, fuuccck, this was brutal, right?

i came to some conclusions--hey! life can throw you a curveball but i ain't dying! I'M NOT DYING. this is terrific. and yes, it's a total cornfest but really..life is...good. GREAT. THE BEST! the only way to get outta tricky and shitty situations is through them. ACTUALLY. i'm being serious here bloggers.

sitting and wallowing in self misery is NOT the solution (even though it feels SO DAMN GOOD) it's not going to get you ANYWHERE! i had a friend of mine today (god, love her) talk to me on the phone-no sympathy:

"holly, what's up? let's figure this shit out. well...what about this? why haven't you tried this? well what did you change? why? k..well maybe if you did this..."

AMAZING. i love no bullshit. fucking love and respect her more. sometimes as much as we love sympathy (and LORRRDDDDD knows i love it) it doesn't always do us good. it helps feed the wallowing. if it wasn't for her-i'd probably be sitting on my kitchen floor eating that bucket of ice cream, crying.

good thing i finished that ice cream yesterday and there are no tears left in me. goodness.

***

i have decided that i am going to expand my creative abilities. dance classes, voice training...i'm going to write more. even if it's complete garbage...you'd tell me if i totally sucked right bloggers?!

mad love.
xoxox

ps. unhappiness is the unwillingness to confront something/someone. think about it.

she sits home and dreams that her man will leave his mark on her hand.

i just watched a few episodes of SATC-i will never be sick of those girls. oh the drama, the cocktails, but omg, the FASHION. i think i would be an incredible fashion stylist. truth.

i wish i had a lot of money so i could shop and CREATE the ultimate looks. i think that's what i like about clothes. i can create a look, a mood, a attitude. i should really apply this to my acting.

i took an incredible workshop last week-how incredible it feels to be cause over your career. i am totally in business. my career is taking off.

***

i was in the beaches this weekend with my dear friend c. we sat on the boardwalk with our starbucks and watched the dogs, babies, couples walk by. we talked of life, love, careers, what success is. who defines success? and what is success?
i believe it to be personal. one's idea of 'success' is very different than another's. who is to say that THIS is the right way or THAT is the wrong one?
there are many people on this planet that feel as though they have some sort of entitlement--if i have to listen to one more person tell me how i feel, how i should feel, what i see or what i don't--i will crack. who the fuck are you?

i think it is of complete importance to believe in yourself-and not in a corny "bullshitty" way--i mean this seriously. you are the only one in your life who is living your life. man up and do what you want to do. this doesn't mean...be an asshole, listen to no one, and wreck havoc in your life--this means, you are the only one who can control your life. your love. your success. your happiness.

i would like to clear up the word control. no it is not negative--as many people are led to believe. if you think about it...there is no such thing as bad control. it's either control or uncontrol. just because one is controlled or has control--this does not make the act of control BAD...obviously, look at the act in which one is controlling. if the act is unfair, painful, and insane--there is still good control. good controlling of the insane act. do you follow?
if one was to drive a car, they have good control over that machine, right?! if the street is straight and then turns and the driver does not move the steering wheel in the proper direction-no control, uncontrolled machine-disaster! right?!

so basically what i was getting at was this: you are the only one with control over your life. your life is not 'the cards that have been dealt'...there is never a time when you cannot change your life for the better. something can be done about anything. you have control. and it's awesome.

woah. sometimes i surprise myself. haha cool!
i am gonna go for a walk. watch people--that sounds so stalkyyy. haha.

peace. love. change. (it's a good thing)
xoxox

common sense knows that you're not good enough for me.

hey. i know it's been awhile, seems like forever actually. i've been thinking about you recently-i wanted to appologize to you. i realize that i was a total bitch to you! i am sorry i left things hanging after our last hangout (which was forever ago). i know this might be totally random-i just wanted to tell you that you're a great guy and i hope we can be friends.

***

i miss you. i miss checking my phone for your witty text messages. i miss laughing at all hours of the night. i miss your music, your laugh, your broken down van. i miss your weird food rders, your dressy attire. i once thought we were meant to be-so perfect for one another-we could keep up with one another. we should've got jerseys-we made a great team! i will always know that underneath your witty banter, your vests, your love of orange juice, and all your iphone applications-i will always know that i deserve better. i deserve more than your jokes, your smile. i deserve your heart and your complete beingness-that's what i would've given to you.
i miss you. i wish i could make you see that i was the one for you. worst of all, i wish i could wrap my head around the fact that you don't deserve me. not even a little. not even a bit. not even at all.

xoxo

nobody does it better.

bloggers! holla, what?!

it's been a long time. i used to be so good at this. but, life has been crazy and busy and wonderful-so crazy and busy and wonderful that sitting at my computer blogging is the farthest thing from my brain.

i am planning a party! a party for my momma's 50th. i LOVE parties!! mini hamburgers, hors d'eouvres, punch-cupcakes! holla, cake! so excited about balloons too. what am i? twelve?! (i hope i get to blow out the candles too!)

so, i am so productive. like, actually. productive, actually. i self-taped an audition for a feature shot in van or maybe it's t.o-casting outta van...ANYWAY: met with my coach early this morning, lay that shizz on tape, and had fun. i was so committed to the scene-i have a bruise on my arm. haa, i love it.

i have found faith in my career, my life. liberating. for real, bloggers. for real!
all i have to say is that there is SO MUCH false data in this world!!! can't deal.

i am gonna peace out-gotta work on my monologue for class tonight-look at me goooo!

love, peace, and faith.
xoxox

she got her own.

woah, 2009!!

***

sixteen days into the new year and here i am! i can successfully say that things are changing and happening for me! i am uber proud of myself-i have worked hard to get here. worked hard at being myself. like, REALLY, myself. i think a lot of this positive progress comes from surrounding myself with people that are positive, healthy, and the ultimate support system. i can go to G with anything. she's so SANE and smart. the boys are also so great!

i went to a pool hall with T & W yesterday-watched them play shnooker (huh?) and pool-it was nice to get out and socialize. how funny it is-last year my resolution was to make guy friends, be more social, move forward with my career--it's all happening.

***

my new place is amazing! dance parties, what?! blaring music, right?! i had G & J over on tuesday night and we drank tea and laughed. it was so nice to have people over here-just chillin and enjoying ourselves.
MY LIFE IS SO FUCKING FABULOUS!!!!
i am all smiles!!

wow, i really have not blogged in a long time-sorry bloggers! i've been so busy being...happy!? ha yay!
i must run-going to watch LOST-season two-omg, you guyyyysss this show is incredible. i mean, kate has sick arms (i want to train to have her bod) and SAWYER is the epitome of yumminess. i mean, like, yummmmmmm drool.

peace, love, SUCCESS!!
xoxo