common sense knows that you're not good enough for me.

hey. i know it's been awhile, seems like forever actually. i've been thinking about you recently-i wanted to appologize to you. i realize that i was a total bitch to you! i am sorry i left things hanging after our last hangout (which was forever ago). i know this might be totally random-i just wanted to tell you that you're a great guy and i hope we can be friends.

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i miss you. i miss checking my phone for your witty text messages. i miss laughing at all hours of the night. i miss your music, your laugh, your broken down van. i miss your weird food rders, your dressy attire. i once thought we were meant to be-so perfect for one another-we could keep up with one another. we should've got jerseys-we made a great team! i will always know that underneath your witty banter, your vests, your love of orange juice, and all your iphone applications-i will always know that i deserve better. i deserve more than your jokes, your smile. i deserve your heart and your complete beingness-that's what i would've given to you.
i miss you. i wish i could make you see that i was the one for you. worst of all, i wish i could wrap my head around the fact that you don't deserve me. not even a little. not even a bit. not even at all.

xoxo