she sits home and dreams that her man will leave his mark on her hand.

i just watched a few episodes of SATC-i will never be sick of those girls. oh the drama, the cocktails, but omg, the FASHION. i think i would be an incredible fashion stylist. truth.

i wish i had a lot of money so i could shop and CREATE the ultimate looks. i think that's what i like about clothes. i can create a look, a mood, a attitude. i should really apply this to my acting.

i took an incredible workshop last week-how incredible it feels to be cause over your career. i am totally in business. my career is taking off.

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i was in the beaches this weekend with my dear friend c. we sat on the boardwalk with our starbucks and watched the dogs, babies, couples walk by. we talked of life, love, careers, what success is. who defines success? and what is success?
i believe it to be personal. one's idea of 'success' is very different than another's. who is to say that THIS is the right way or THAT is the wrong one?
there are many people on this planet that feel as though they have some sort of entitlement--if i have to listen to one more person tell me how i feel, how i should feel, what i see or what i don't--i will crack. who the fuck are you?

i think it is of complete importance to believe in yourself-and not in a corny "bullshitty" way--i mean this seriously. you are the only one in your life who is living your life. man up and do what you want to do. this doesn't mean...be an asshole, listen to no one, and wreck havoc in your life--this means, you are the only one who can control your life. your love. your success. your happiness.

i would like to clear up the word control. no it is not negative--as many people are led to believe. if you think about it...there is no such thing as bad control. it's either control or uncontrol. just because one is controlled or has control--this does not make the act of control BAD...obviously, look at the act in which one is controlling. if the act is unfair, painful, and insane--there is still good control. good controlling of the insane act. do you follow?
if one was to drive a car, they have good control over that machine, right?! if the street is straight and then turns and the driver does not move the steering wheel in the proper direction-no control, uncontrolled machine-disaster! right?!

so basically what i was getting at was this: you are the only one with control over your life. your life is not 'the cards that have been dealt'...there is never a time when you cannot change your life for the better. something can be done about anything. you have control. and it's awesome.

woah. sometimes i surprise myself. haha cool!
i am gonna go for a walk. watch people--that sounds so stalkyyy. haha.

peace. love. change. (it's a good thing)
xoxox