whenever you call.

the accident 'i love you' slip-ups make me laugh out loud and smile huge inside.

i'll never be too far to feel you.

i have never been one to be speechless or to have a hard time expressing myself...
i'm having a hard time expressing my thoughts and feelings i have from these past two months.

i guess that's why i blog.

i miss blogging, a lot.

k, so these past two months have been so fantastic...and real. like, REAL.

i used to have such fantasy in my life--how i wanted things, what i would expect from someone/something...what it would feel like to have someone...there. always there and ready to help me, make me laugh, tell me to knock off my nonsense...take care of me.

life is not what i fantasized about, what i mocked it up to be, what i assumed. the fantasy was brilliant, beautiful, perfect.

the greatest discovery i've had over the last little while is, that despite how amazing the fantasy is...the real deal is SO MUCH GREATER. more whimsical, more fun, more lovely.

you've opened my eyes and lifted me up inside :)

it feels like a puzzle piece i was missing. ew, i'm so gross. and so happy. so gross and so happy.

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my commercial is on the air--which means money and also HAHA I'M ON TV! that's jokes!!
i've been getting the best texts, emails, phone calls about it--the support is amazing.

how can i be so damn lucky? and be touched by so many people's hearts and messages. life is fabbbb.


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went home last weekend. brought the boyfriend. it was the best trip i've ever had at home ever. for real. like, ever.

it was so super amazing to see my sister and my mama. i've really missed them! there were no fights, just laughs. so many laughs! it was so inspiring and comforting. the TRIO now has a necklace--like a friendship one but it's big sis-mom-lil sis. it's adorable and small and oh so personal. mama gave me one of her chains..it's beautiful. just like her.

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andddd bloggers, it's almost my 23rd birthday!! what? when did this happen?! i remember when RW turned 23....that seems like yesterday! efff.

wow. so much changes in a year. sooo much.

change is a good thing.

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