baby you're all that i want.

baby, we're in heaven.

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this past week was so much fun!!! tines came to visit me and omg omg omg did we laugh. giggle. snort. pee our pants with love and enjoyment and LOOOOVE!!! so many giggles, it hurt. lots. haha. love her. love us.

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soooo it's almost christmas and i can't be more excited! i will be off for 5 days straight...and spending alot of time in his truck. and mmm with him. and mmm mmm mmm. i get so distracted when i think of him...


i never thought i could ever feel this way about someone. ever. i have butterflies in my tummy when i think about him. when i see him. when i am lying with him. ew, i'm gross.

it is the weirdest and most amazing feeling to have for someone. so deep and so pure.
even when i'm cheesed at him, i can't stay that way. he's too fucking cute. and too fucking funny. and fuuuuck i'm inlove.

never thought i would ever let myself be where i'm at. and trust me. i've had some serious issues with opening up to him, letting him in...keeping him in the dark made me feel 'in control'...the reality of it all was that i was even in less control and actually sooo into him that it was becoming hard for me to...not be with him. wholeheartedly. mmmm he's the best and i'm so lucky.

i have never felt more special in my life. smiles smiles smiles smiles smiles.

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i made him a really gay mix cd of love songs. tines helped me with the title "love conquers all; the most romantic songs of our lives"....hahaha! truly madly deeply anyone?! haha gonna be the best 'gift' ever...haha, actually concealing the real gift. fucking tix to the raptors gameeee. holla. best girlfriend everrrr. kinda totally pumped about going to a ball game. ya, i like bball. weird? maybe. awesome? YES.

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i miss my family and cannot wait to see them soon!! trying to work out christmas gifties right now..and i made dinner last night with help from tines on my blackberry..i cleaned, organized and bought clementines. christmas is here, yo!
i'm going to buy some christmas decorations today and then decorate my apartment...gotta bring the christmas out! i'm an elf. what.

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listening to the best songs right now. a lil christmas, a lil "i'll be" by edwin mccain. mmm. love my life.

cloud nine
x

he asked me if he bought a house, if i'd live there with him.
(absolutely)