hush hush.

i had been dreading last night for weeks. the idea of it. everything about it scared me. i was scared of the unknown--what's going to happen? what am i going to say? what is he going to say?

needless to say, it was a G R E A T night and i had nothing to worry about! life surprises me sometimes. and it was a great surprise. up-late, giggles, talks...it was nice. :)

sometimes i can justify something until i am blue in the face, mock-up the weirdest situations, and convince myself of what is 'greatest' good. i'm silly. i am way too over-imaginative and dramatic. i'm so glad i made a decision. he's a cute one.

do something that scares you.
do something that you think you might regret.
there is never a point in your life where you can't make a change.
going one direction is perfectly fine until you feel at a cross-roads.
there is nothing wrong with turning around and going another way.

you are the only one living YOUR life. yes. our families, our friends influence us and inspires us. sometimes aggravate us or supress us...they help to mold you but at the end of the day you are the only one who is you. and i think that's pretty damn great.

i'm off to run errands and be happy. i have a huge urge to call my momma but she's away at a cottage and i'm cheesed because i can't get ahold of her and texting her is not as fun as calling her. and babbling to her. gee, i miss her.

i feel really great today. i'm going out into the sunshine so i can a)tan and b)smile.

ew i'm gross.

peace + love
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