seeing red

i am officially pissed.

i don't think i have felt this angry in a long time. i want to cry but i can't. i can't cry because i am too angry i wish tears could save me from myself. i wish a lot would save me from myself.

stupid ignorant customers. my service was fucking great. at their beck and call. what do they want me to do? wipe their asses?

i cannot wait to smoke pot tonight. it's necessary. i like it. fucking smoking pot might be a taboo but i could give a shit. i am angry and i need to breathe. yes, i need drugs to help me breathe and unwind. whatever.

i got a coffee today from starbucks that i didn't get to finish or drink really. it was delicious...for the most part. as i got on the subway today my horoscope in the metro was enlightening. i ripped it out. this is what it said:

stop working for a while and just relax (huh!). final plans are failing to please a woman. someone has not been maintaining their resolutions.

hmmm.

also, something brilliant tina told me when she was on vaca at my place. she is brilliant by the way:

the opposite of love is not hate--but indifference.

fucking true. i really like the sound of that.

gonna attempt the gym tomorrow. i have to sort some shit out with management. fuck, that is so awkward. oh well. what can i do? i am profiting anyway right?

profit. hmmm.

i'm over this. love and whatever.
pot and peace. fucking brilliant.
xoxox