if i loved you anymore

wow. LA has been incredible for me. truly rad. truly wonderful.
i tried my best to be the least tourist-y that i could be. i want to see everything but there is no rush to see everything right away...i will be back. i WILL be living here soon...gimme a year or two (max).

i have learnt so much about myself. about my life. about my dreams. i have spent a lot of time getting the 'scoop' on the 'realities' of the life in LA. this industry. this lifestyle.

i have spent the last two weeks hanging out with the most rad people. all established adults working to make their dreams a reality. how inspiring.

i am already so upset with the thought of returning to my reality. i know for certain my reality has COMPLETELY changed for the better. i have discovered the truth...

the questions i used to ask myself...questions that i still have...

am i good enough?
do i have what it takes?
do i have a chance?
can this really happen for me?

two weeks here and the answers are yes yes yes yes.

i am better than i let myself be. i thought coming to LA would result in me feeling ugly, self-conscious, wrong, undesirable...

the more time i spend with the most amazing people, the more i realize i am GOOD enough. this IS powerful. i can't wait to go home to execute my strength. i am at the best place i could possibly be in my life. i am young, pretty, and talented. i have what it takes. the thing i am missing is self-confidence and the focus that i need.
less and more sacrifice than i have been willing to execute. it is my time. mark my words. please.

there are so many things that i am ready to do that i have been the ultimate LAX about...times are changing. i won't be this young forever. i won't be this free forever. i have nothing NOTHING nothing holding me back.

i am serious. times are changing and i am finally settling my feet down. ready to handle my life. my dreams. my focus.

peace, love, and inspiration.
xoxoxox
there is never a time when you can't change your life.
you make the rules.
it will not make you a bad/better/worse/good person. fuck them.
love yourself.