we should get jerseys cuz we make a good team.

i have met my match. it has been a nutzo three weeks-i have never been happier! i have never felt more positive--coming from an ALREADY positive person...this is BIG time.

that being said, good things always come to a crossroad at some point.

we had the talk monday night/tuesday morning (3am anyone?)...we spent another fantastic time at fran's and tried our darnest to pretend there was no elephant in the room.
we called her charley/ie (i like "ey" better, him not so much...

it is not the time for us. not yet. so intense the honeymoon phase-haha, honeymoon.
we are going to be friends-i mean, our immense talk was possibly the most honest and heartfelt conversation that i have ever had in my past-numb world. it was bittersweet, heartbreaking, respectful, and absolutely wonderful. i have no hate. no words to describe him. he is the most honest, hilarious gentleman that i have ever met. my true match.

well, that's how i see it now.
let's give it a few weeks-JOKES. we will be lifelong friends-i know bloggers, this might come across as me being bitter or sarcastic but i PROMISE/ASSURE you-i mean all these things. if friends are what we are than that is fantastic. why would i let him out of my life over some feelings that are/were/still are confused and scared? and these are not all on my part.
to be honest, i do not think i have ever been so gungho on a guy. haha, gungho.

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on a different note, i am taking control of my life. i am in the process of detoxing my life-i am becoming much more aware of the people in my life, what i am ingesting into my body (say no to drugs!), and the situations/relationships i have been keeping up/trying to avoid/am invested in.

this is my year. i still believe this.
it will be-why? because i am taking control of my life. there is no one else in this world that can affect/change/alter/create the life that i want other than me. doesn't that sound absolutely liberating????
it is.

i must go-sorry for the very blunt and straight-up blog post. i know it's been awhile and i should be blogging more but, ladies and gents, i am living my life (cue T.I feat. RIHANNA) and need to have a dance party to britney's new album.

britney's back, bitches!
(who told you so??? hmmm??? hmmmmmmm????????)
that's what i thought.

peace, love, truth.
xoxox